Code Of Conduct

There has recently been a lot of talk about the US abolishing their ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ policy in their military and finally let gay and lesbian servicemen openly serve their country as gay and lesbians. There were even two servicemen who chained themselves to the fences of the white house as protest against the ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ policy, they were Cpt. Jim Pietrangelo, Lt. Dan Choi. The seem to have the full support of many American GLBT groups, although there are now legal action taken against the two of them, and their court case is pending.

Lt. Dan Choi at the National Equality March

One of Obama’s promise is to ‘try’ and liberate the gays and lesbians in the military and allow them to serve openly, although he has yet to keep to his word… like a lot of other things he promised. (don’t get me started on that guy… how on earth he won the nobel peace prize eludes me)

Well, coincidently I just read a gay book on the US military. I was pretty proud of myself for buying this book, because it was an actual paperback edition of the book that I bought from Borders in Melbourne. It actually took me a lot of courage to walk to the GLBT section, picked a book, and actually paid for it at the counter. Big step for a small closeted gay :)

The book is entitled Code of Conduct. It’s a fiction about gay and lesbians serving in the US military during the Clinton era. That’s the pre ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ era, when gays and lesbians in the military had to serve in fear of people finding out about their sexuality. There were apparently ‘witch hunts’ for gays and lesbians serving in the military whereby if they were found out, they were dishonourably discharged and had their pensions removed… How sad right?

The story is pretty insightful into the lives of gay and lesbians military, how they live in fear of getting found out by their superiors... Kinda a little like how I’m currently afraid of how my parents or friends will find out about my sexuality. Haha, so at a certain level… I can sorta relate to the characters. Anyway it’s a great book and it’s a read I’d recommend any day.

One of my favourite part of the book was when the main character tried to explain why straight men serving in the military are afraid of gay people. It’s not because they are afraid that gay guys will look at them in the showers, rather it’s because they are afraid that they are so unattractive that even gay men don’t find them attractive and not look at them in the showers. He suggests that because in his opinion a lot of people joining the military have personality complexes or self esteem problems, that’s why they join the military to find themselves.

I personally think if a country stands for freedom and promotes freedom of speech... Then military personnel should be allowed to serve openly and freely express themselves. Although one might argue that in joining the military you sign away your freedom of thought to higher authority, because you only obey orders from higher authority and lead your subordinates… your not suppose to actually think? LoL

Signing out.

Monster Ball

I went to watch Lady Gaga perform live in Melbourne last night, and to say the least… her performance was extraordinarily awesome. The show opened with a band called ‘Semi Precious Weapons’, which were averagely average at best, although I’m positively sure the lead singer in that band was gay… and a very tall twinky one at that.

Anyway Lady Gaga may not have very good vocals, even I have to admit that, but as a performer, she is surely up there among the best. She played all her usual number ending with Bad Romance!

Rah ra ah ah ah ah! Roma roma mamaa!
Gag a ohh la la! Want your Bad Romance!

Lady Gaga certainly didn’t let down any of the audiences with her wild dressing sense and wacky antics. Among them were mechanically moving head dresses and spark spurting bras (like the one in the Poker Face MTV), as well as performing on an electric harp and a flaming piano. Once again, I just have to say her performance was mesmerising.

And of course, it being a Lady Gaga concert, it was very gay indeed. I’d put my money down that at least seventy percent of the guys there were gay… I mean, c’mon its Gaga going Gay Gay :) LoL

She even tributed the song Boys Boys Boys to all her gay fans, she opened that song by saying that she can always “Count on her most loyal fans… My Gay Boys!” And then all her cute hot dancers (in only shorts) came out to dance while she started singing. And wow… her male dancers were… hawt! LoL, I was definitely drooling over some of them.

Took some pictures with my phone… although it wasn’t very clear as the phone’s camera isn’t top notch.




And also a Video when she went to the island stage and did Poker Face.




All in all it was a very good concert and I’d most certainly recommend everyone to go watch it. And being such a trusty supporter of the GLBT community, I guess its only right that I supported her in return. Gaga!

Signing Out.

'Profiles' Eulogy

Previously I talked about becoming more engaged and focussed on my studies. So to actually prove to myself that I am indeed committed to that mind set, I’ve decided to remove all my current online profiles. That means I’m removing them from Gaydar, Fridae and Axcest. Although Axcest is a little but tricky, cant seem to delete the profile so I’ve just removed all personal information about me and made it a blank profile.

I originally have hoped that from these profile I would have been able to find my other half… since I never had an actual girlfriend in secondary school, I always had this fantasy that I would find a boyfriend in uni, and we could have lunch together in uni, study at the library together and attend uni events together. But alas, I think my fantasy would have to remain just that – a fantasy.

No uni sweetheart for me (in my mind a uni sweetheart is like a high school sweetheart), and since this is my final year in uni, that means that there is no chance of me ever finding my uni sweetheart. But that’s okay I guess, because at this point in life, I have to get my priorities right… especially since its my final year, my studies should most certainly come first, not love nor lust.

Some people claim that having a boy/girlfriend while studying can be very motivating and will help increase your grades in school; others say that being in a relationship while studying is like having a second job, and will surely pull your grades down. I suppose now I would never know the answer to that question.

Over the course of this year, if I do meet someone very chemically compatible with me, I wouldn’t say no to a relationship, but by removing my online profiles… the chances of me meeting more people is slim. And to be honest that’s okay for now, because as I said, I need to get my priorities right.

And right now, the right thing to do is to focus on enriching my mind with my studies, and not my penis… LoL. So bye bye profiles and GO GO STUDIES!

Signing out.