At Least You Tried

I would have told myself the same thing some of my friends have been telling me... "At least you tried, if he ain't responding to your sms, its his lost"

But saying it, and hearing it is totally different... it kinda hurts that people don't even reply your sms... I mean even to say a simple "I'm not interested"... Do they know how the person sending the message feels when nobody replies your messages?

Frangipani Flower

I'm starting to think that the feng shui of Frangi doesn't suit me... this is the second time I've mustered up the courage to send someone I met/found from Frangi a message... and they didn't reply me... sigh... I'd say its quite a blow to my already deflated gay confidence :| c'mon man... it doesn't cost that much to send out a simple text message right? apparently it does... to some people.

Well... its less than a week away to CNY... at least thats something to look forward to... I've been a lil coughy lately... hopefully it doesn't develop into a full fledged cough before CNY...

Signing out.

I'm Not That Scary... Right?

So what do you do on the very last weekend of the Chinese bull year? Go out and party like crazy… hahaha, nah I didn’t party like crazy, but I did go out both nights Friday and Saturday with my pals for drinks and dance. Friday was at Frangi… to celebrate a friend’s birthday, and Saturday was just… for fun :)

Saturday was at MP, fun as usual... met many new friends that night, some of them were really good looking… way out of my league. I also had quite a bit to drink that night, coz Evann was kind enough to drive me… so I kinda let loose a lil :)

Okay… maybe I let loose more than a little and scared a certain someone a lil… lets call him ‘C’. How did I scare C? well the story started from Friday night… C was at Frangi Friday night, and when I spotted him in the crowd… I immediately had the “OMG he is fucking cute!” thought going over and over again in my head. It wasn’t that I wanted to do him or something, but I did want to get to know him more… So I asked the people I went out with if they knew C, so that maybe one of them could introduce him to me… unfortunately none of them did… so I was a lil disappointed. My friends then suggested I approached him and talk to him… and maybe get his number or something….

OBVIOUSLY I wasn’t that bold, so I kinda made an excuse that I wasn’t high enough yet… and that I might approach him once I had a few more drinks. After some extra drinks, I looked around again for C, but he was already gone. I was rather relieved, coz despite wanting very badly to get to know him, I still didn’t feel bold enough to approach him. So with him gone, I told my friends that I would have chatted him up… but because he already left I couldn’t. To be honest, I was abit disappointed with myself then…

Guess what? C was then again at MP the next night… and again I wanted to get to know him… but honestly didn’t have the balls to just approach a complete stranger and ask for his number… After having a few drinks, the unthinkable happened… Evann suggested we played ‘Dare’ and dared me to get that guys number. I was like… err, I’m really not that bold. Then Evann (wise old Evann) gave me a pick up line and said… that might work…

I’m not gonna post the pick up line here… coz I think its copyrighted by Evann… anyway… at that moment, maybe because of the drinks… I thought possibly armed with this super pick up line, I might be able to get C’s number. So after some persuasion from my mates… I finally dug up the courage walked up to C, and used the pick up line on him. He had a very cute smile when I said the line to him, and thank all the heavens in the world… I finally got C’s number!!! Lol, woohoo… I was like wow wow wow…

I went back to the table and told the guys I got his number! And then the supplier of the line said to me wide eyed in disbelieve “ It worked???” and I was like… omg, don’t tell me I was the guinea pig, and that u never used that pick up line before… from his giggling that moment, I knew I was used :) haha even though I was used, it was a good type of used… coz I actually managed to get C’s number.



The bad part is that… I’m pretty sure I scared C by using such a pick up line in a club… coz I sent him an sms in this evening asking how’s his day… no reply so far…I mean if it was me… I would be pretty freaked out if some stranger walked up to me and used that pick up line as well… but he gave me his number, and I missed call him to double check its correct… don’t think he lied about his number…

Maybe I’m not his type, maybe I freaked him out… I dunno… anyway, overall I had a great weekend out with all my friends… and I guess it would be a perfect weekend if C actually did reply my sms… hehe… and I just realised while typing this post that I was the only one that played the dare that night… being dared to get C’s number… nobody else actually played :| Well I hope I didn’t scare him, and I’d like to say that I didn’t approach him just because of the dare… the dare only helped made me more bold to approach him… coz maybe without it… I wouldn’t have mustered up the courage to do what I did…

Signing out.

Neither Here Nor There

“So like how long are you gonna be here again…?”
“three months”
“oh I see… cool”
*prospective guy loses interested in me…*

Sigh, that is the typical conversation that starts and ends whenever I meet potential new guys. You see… because of my education… I’m neither here nor there… out of the twelve months, I’m usually in Malaysia for the first two months… then back to aussieland for four months of first semester… then back to Malaysia a month for winter break… then again back to aussieland for four months of second semester… then back to Malaysia again for the first month of summer break (rinse and repeat after that). That means that I’m in Malaysia for four months, and in aussieland for eight months.

Jan -My
Feb -My
Mar -Au
Apr -Au
May -Au
Jun -Au
Jul -My
Aug -Au
Sep -Au
Oct -Au
Nov -Au
Dec -My


Well, you may ask why do I travel back and forth and not just stay in aussieland till the end of year summer break… that potentially means I will be in aussieland for nine months straight, and not break it up with a one month break in between back in Malaysia. Well, you must understand that I’m the single child of the family… (I will personally twist your nuts off if you even dare to mention anything remotely close to the sentence ‘soooo lucky!’… seriously) so… that’s why I have to come back to Malaysia to spend time with my parents. So family mostly explains why I travel back and forth so much.




Okay so what is the post about? It’s basically me ranting about not being able to get a stable longtermie coz I’m never in one place for more than four months. I mean, honestly I wouldn’t wanna date myself… Being separated for months in between is really hard to handle… so… does this mean I’m implying that I cannot be loyal to my luved one in a long distance relationship (LDR), which is not it… I believe I can be loyal… but being human… I may be able to control myself… but I certainly can’t control my other half right? Not half way across the world (eight hours flight… if you were wondering about the distance between Kuala Lumpur and Melbourne).





Sigh, I feel that by not staying in one place for a long enough time really hinders my selling point as a eligible bachelor… guys usually shy away the moment they know that I will not be around for months at end. And like I said, I don’t blame them. So the only ones I attract are the ones interested in one night stands… I may do that… sometimes (not admitting to it… just may) but that is really not my cup of tea… I may not believe in a lifetime relationship… but I still do believe in a committed relationship, and certainly one that involves commitment lasting longer that a single night.

So one more year for me this year… assuming I don’t fail anything… then I’ll graduate in December and can finally decide where I’m gonna stay put. Whether it be aussieland… or the land that is truly Asia. Then… and maybe then… I can finally find someone that will date me long term. Until then… its just me, myself and I…
(I know that last sentence was emo… but I do feel that way sometimes)

Signing out.